I dreamt about you, its been 5 years since you left.
The pain has always been there but i got better coping with it but i dreamt of you.
We were on the rooftop, the same one where we would laugh making stupid jokes with the moon, where we got screamed at to get down or we might break our neck, where the night was beautiful and serene not filled with sadness.
I saw you, looking at me while i cried, feeling an enormous amount of pain in my chest, sitting there facing you and you looked the same, as beautiful as you always were.
I remember how cold your hands were, how they brush against my cheek and how you look almost apologetic.
I remember telling you how painful it was and how i wanted to die but you kept shaking your head and mouthing word i couldn’t hear making me cry harder.
I miss your voice, your laughter and that annoying groan you always made. I miss them so much and here i am, facing you but i couldn’t hear you and it was killing me but what scared me the most was when you got up and ran, past the rooftop.
I woke up scared and in tears. Its been 5 years but every dream involving you always scared me and leaves an enormous void afterwards.