angry rants

WARNING, THIS IS AN ANGSTY ANGRY RANT. THERE WILL BE CURSES AND SWEAR WORDS.

NOTE ; YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED.

I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS ANGRY IN SUCH A LONG TIME. i TRY TO BE PATIENT BUT THIS TAKES THE TOP!

LIKE SUPER OMG,

FIRST OF ALL, i tried to help my friend who thought this guy was cute and so i went to borrow his lighter. This guy was actually nice but bitch ass friend wasn’t.

conversation went like this

me: Can you please pass the lighter back to him (Pointing at the nice guy sicne he was on the phone )

bitch ass : Just put it there ( I could feel the attitude coming off him )

me : Are you sure?

him : Yeah, put it there.

That bitch did not just gave me fcuked up attitude especially when i was being nice. like the hell is wrong with you! i was being nice and asking to give back something. Does not mean you have to being a bitch. Who the hell cares if you got looks and you look like the asian less muscular version of Taylor Lautner. if i am nice, you jolly well better be nice or at least suck it in. I work in the service industry as well and i know the pressure but does not mean you can give me attitude when i spoke nicely and even said please.

like the malay’s say ; KAU DAH WHATS WRONG.

translation : what is wrong with you!

2ND PERSON WHO DECIDED TO PISS ME OFF : MY FRIEND’S EX BOYFRIEND.

LETS CALL HIM K.

the story goes like this, they both dated and broke up after a conflict and this k apparently cheated on my friend when they were on a time out, he told everyone they broke up and went out with another girl, he then gave shit attitude to my friend and when my friend doesn’t text him or call him, he calls her a disappointment as a girlfriend when they fcuking broke up already and is an honest attention seeking bitch.Just because he ride’s in the rain and got soaking yet, he bitch at my friend calling her heartless and stuff like that.

LIKE SERIOUSLY?

MY FRIEND FELL OFF THE FCUKING LADDER AND DIDN’T EVEN COMPLAIN TO YOU AND YOU START BITCHING AT HER CAUSE YOU GOT SOAKED IN THE FCUKING RAIN WHEN YOU OWNS A FCUKING RAIN COAT.

i used my friend’s phone and write him an sms. I called him an attention seeking whore in the face and told him to grow up and i even advise him to be the better man and make an effort for her if he really wants her back because the way we see it, its on her making the effort. His response

BITCH DECIDED TO CALL.

i was like fine and picked it up. conversation went something like this

K : can you call her to the phone

me : she is crying and she does not want to talk to you.

k : do you not understand English, can you just call her to the phone.

OH THIS BITCH JUST DIDN’T.

me : Excuse me, my English is way better than yours.

k : If you are a good friend, you would pass the phone.

me : if i was, i won’t even let you talk to her.

K : *Repeats the same thing again *

me : oh sorry i’m not a good friend.

K : *  repeats the same thing *

me : oh my god! do you not understand english?!

K :  If you are a good friend, you would pass the phone. Do you not understand english?!

Me : Excuse me! my English is better than yours. and even if i pass the phone, what do you want to do. I will pass if you apologise to her and make it sound sincere but if you don’t, your dead.

NOTE : THIS BITCH WAS TALKING IN A NICE TONE TO ME ALL THE WHILE.

BUT WHEN I PASSED THE PHONE TO MY FRIEND, THIS BITCH DECIDED HE WAS SOME GANGSTER AND GUESS WHAT, HE THREATENED TO BEAT ME UP. HE TOLD ME TO COME DOWN AND SETTLE THINGS WITH HIM. hE SAID HE WANTED TO BEAT ME UP.

OH YOU COWARD. WHY COULDN’T YOU TELL ME IN THE FACE?

MY RESPONSE

MY DAD USED TO BE A POLICE, MY COUSINS ARE POLICE SO YOU DECIDE.

urgh! so angry at this point. he even wanted to beat my friend up as well. my friend then went off home still on the phone with him and she asked if she could pass my number to him. i told her if he wanted to fight on the phone with me, i am not interested. I am not scared but it will get us no where but i told her to give my number. if he wants to come and beat me up, bring it on cause I’ll show you what a muay thai kid can do. I’ll be sure to practice all the moves i learnt.

Here is the thing,

if you want to be treated nicely, you do the same to others.
Karma is a serious bitch and you will get your medicine.

As they say, do good to other if you want the same to happen to you.

relationship, my kind

i am pretty sure i am not the only women who rather have this then all of you mushy mushy sickening sweetness. now don’t get me wrong, i have nothing against that but sorry, that just ain’t me. 

I’m the kind of lady who insults everyone closes to me, i call them dirty names and picks a fight with them and sometimes because of this, people take me the wrong way but hey, the reason is i just do not know how to act cute nor mushy. 

even with my ex, he will go all mushy saying he loves me and he’ll be talking baby talks and i’m like 

or i’ll go 

you see, i do not deal well with people sweet talk to me and i cannot deal with mushy cute stuff unless they involve cute animals but if not that, i will literally tell you to put a sock in it or i won’t reply till you talk properly. 

I sound like a hater but no, i do think it is cute but i find annoying at the same time. its like 

i know every lady wants a gentlemen who will treat her right, pay for her food and shopping and what not, miss her and call her every night and practically see her all the time and i shall say it, 

i respect your decision and if your boyfriend is okay with that, fine by me. 

but boys, half of us other girls rather you actually make an effort and playfully fight with us. 

It makes the relationship much more fun and interesting and yes, we get annoyed with clingy boys who call us every so often or asking us to meet like everyday. Twice a week is good and you can just text us away, spam our phones but not give us 5 min update report on what you are doing every min. we are not your mother! Girls would like it if you inform us where you are going and we’ll tell you to take care and having a lil space between is good because by the time he comes back , you can ask him how was his day and you have much more things to talk about! and  not make us annoyed by the sound of silence when we are on the phone and we run out of things to talk about when we call too often! 

unless your like my cousin who practically can talk to her boyfriend every night without running out of things to talk about then i applaud you! 

Being asshole to one another does not mean your a bitch or he is a dick, sometimes it how we show we do care about you and to be honest, i still do not know how to respond to someone’s compliment, sweet talk or mushy talk. I basically freeze up and go like

OHGOD, this is probably the reason why i don’t have a boyfriend. 

ah well, the single life is good anyway. 

 

writer wanna-be

I had always entertained the idea of being a writer. 

I love how you can play around with the words and they’ll give you all sort of meaning! 

but i fear i am not good with words nor grammar nor is my imagination that creative. 

pity because i would have loved to write stories of romance and adventure! 

where the lead character would be an amazing powerful female indiana- jones type who travel the world in search for mystical items so often does trade with a scheming evil yet kind hearted guy but goes against each other for the ultimate prize. 

but now it is starting to sound like hunger games. ah well! 

but don’t you ever wonder where William Shakespeare or j.k rowling or the guy who wrote Lord of the rings get their ideas for their storyline or even edgar ellen poe and not forgetting Stephen king of course, 

where, tell me where do this genius get their ideas from? 

i doubt it fell from the sky and dropped into their laps! but if it was, god damn it! 

why so good?! 

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life changing.

What was the one experience that completely changed your life? What happened? How did it change your life?

In truth, too many things happened that made me changed my life. There is no such one life changing experience. For me, everyday is a revolution or to say. 

my first experience when i was young was when i harbour hatred and resentment towards my mom was when she first hit me when i was 7 years old, on my birthday. It all started out when i went to have a picnic with my grandparents and aunties and my mom was at work. we came home late and my mom was in a foul mood and after her naggy mouth, she hit me right across the face. As i child, i was scared and sacred to sa and before that, i was hit so hard my nose bleed all because i broke my father’s bottle of honey. 

From then on, i hated my mom because of her words and actions. She would hit me a lot of times throughout my childhood and i hated her to the point i rather kill myself but my father was a good man, he always tried to defend me and i continued staying alive for him but i kept so many thing bottled up, i became withdrawn and silent. 

As i grew, so many things happen and at the peak of it, my hatred for my mom collapse when she said she loved me and always and that she was sorry for always being harsh. My anger and resentment towards her just faded and our relationship is so much better now. Yes i do still annoy the crap out of her and all but we learn to compromise like watching our fav show together and even watching a quiz show and trying to outsmart each other. 

Death itself changed my life. As i grew, i saw many deaths. My first one was when my aunt who had diabetes passed away, in the muslim customs, we give a kiss to the deceased forehead to send them away and i remember as a young child, i was forced to do that and i kept trying to run away. It was intimidating, 

what changed me was when one of my uncles passed away, i knew him well but we never really talked till he was in the hospital. A day before he died, he kissed my forehead and told me to take care and be a good kid, I told him he will get better and i’ll see him soon but he passed away when i was in camp. 

the turning point, when my fav uncle passed away from cancer. He was a funny man who never failed to take time to talk to me. He would joke around and because he lived on a very high story, he would always warn me to stay away from the window. my fav memory of him was without fail, he would give me a forehead kiss. seeing him in the hospital suffering and trying to put on a smile for everyone broke me. I prayed god took him away before he had to suffer any more and god loved him. god took him away and even then, i couldn;t bring myself to cry at his funeral. i kept it in. this really taught me to cherish and be thankful for the people in our lives, didn’t matter if they made a difference or not, we should already be thankful we were able to cross path. 

this post is getting lengthy and so, i shall end it here and till the next time 🙂

ps, i pulled my leg muscle while working out! 

to those who took time to read my post, here is a blowing kiss for you awesome people! 

 

irene adler

 

Lara pulver or also know as Irene adler in Bbc sherlock holmes. 

Truth be told, i have the biggest cursh on this women. I just love how she brings herself in the drama and she makes kinky looks so good. 

I believe she and Sherlock holmes are the perfect match but molly is okay too i guess but i love how strong of a women she is, how they call her THE WOMEN and i love it when they say dominatrix and how she brought the nation to its knee just like James Moriarty. 

Yes, all the names are fitting for her. I would love to work for her or even be her partner. 

I’m pretty sure she will take good care of me. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

break up..

 

No, this is not movie review with the same tittle, but this is something that everyone goes through in a relationship. 

The break up. 

One of the worst and scariest thing there is. The break up is when both parties realize that they just can’t do it any more but rarely it is both parties, it normally is one party that decided and the other party having to deal with it. 

One of my close girls just broke up with her boyfriend. She is obviously down and has hopes of getting back together. Lesbi honest, i superly dislike her boyfriend. From the first time he met us, he didn’t make a move to be friends with us or even talk. He just kept looking at his food. so when they broke up, did i feel a sense of relief? Maybe a lil bit? I mean come on, she deserve better but as they say, love is blind. 

Me and my girls had to suck it up and be nice in front of him yet we bitch behind him. we aren’t a hypocrite, we are just growing up and being happy for one of our girls but of course she knew that we al disliked him and she could accept that but he didn’t need to know cause we all don’t care about what he thinks. 

Anyway after they broke up, things were turning sour and some truth came out and he said hurtful words and as her friend, after hearing her stories and hearing her trying not to cry, all i wanted to do is god damn punch you till you bleed. Yes, you heard me right, if i was given the chance, i would hit you so bad for cheating on her and threatening her and for asking her to do such lewd stuff. 

You are a pussy, you don’t t have the D that us women wants. You aint got balls bitch! 
If you don’t love someone, you dont fucking hide and go out with other girls and refuse to be straight forwards. Real men don’t beat around the bushes and cheat. They tell it to you in your face! 

You lost a lady asshole and you are gonna kiss her god damn sexy ass when she comes out of the gym  and feel you wasted your chance to be with her. 

and to my babe, i know you are strong and you can overcome this. Lets fill up our weekends with things more productive and don;t keep moaning about the breakup, it know it hurts like crap because you lost your future and your best friend but thank Allah for showing you his true self. I know your probably going to defend him again but i’ll probably tell you not too. 

Life is short to worry about past mistake, keep going forward and towards your dream. If things happen, it happens. you and him were a routine, with all those phone calls and dates but slowly get un used to it and enjoy your freedom before marriage. Now that is worst, you can;t even break up even if you wanted too! Your gonna fight with your husband and sleep in the same bed as him! 

Babe, you deserve better and you know that. Take all this as your life lessons because these makes the best stories and shows how strong you can get. don’t give up because of one guy, there will be other fishes, if not sharks and dolphin. The whole sea is your playground. 

The break up is always the hardest thing to go through but you will be fine. Time, ll you need now is time to make everything more calm. You can;t expect him to be okay after everything that you both have been through like how i dont expect you to be okay after your break up. 

All you need to do know is keep breathing and time. Inn sya allah all will be well. Kalau die terbaik untuk kamu seperti teman, allah will make everything better. Never lose faith in god, 

 

i love you and please don’t kill yourself. 

xoxo 

life so far

I am not an avid blogger but here i am going to talk about life so far. 

I guess it took a wonderful turn? 
I have been working and been enjoying work actually. 
Yes, it is exhausting and annoying, Some customer are really that annoying but my work colleagues make it all better. When i first started, i was scared of work politics and the enviorment. Working in the F&B line isn’t really my thing. I am more comfortable in the outdoors but i braved myself and went for it. The people are friendly and amusing. Annoying point, they keep forgetting to ask for my work schedule but all is well, 

There are days when i am afraid to admit to my parent that i actually enjoy work. i am scared when i mention or says this words, everything will come crashing down. 

Ever get that sense of fear? 

I do unfortunately , all the time. Thats why i choose to tell people that i am happily going with the flow and work is well and i do pray that everything will stay this way, 

Favourite cousin came with her boyfriend and i gave them a free drinks. Its family. 

Had an outing with my outlet colleagues on the 12 of march. My verdict : It was awesome! everyone expect for like 1 person in my outlet smokes so after seoul graden, we all went down to chill take pictures and smoke! everything felt like it was falling in place and i felt so relax but i do think 2 of my colleagues are dating and i was asked to take a picture with my Chinese  manager which i ended up laughing due to a comment by my other colleague who apparently is from my school but in his third year. I was forced by my pinoy manager to take a picture with my Chinese  manager and my colleagues went like “She don’t like Chinese boys lah thats why seat so far ” and we all started out laughing but i managed a photo. 

 Apparently at work, i met a wonderful soul. Shall not reveal her name but she is way younger than me. I’m turning 21 and she is only turning 17? But since we both are December babies, we could talk about everything and anything!

my verdict about my workplace: the people are awesome! 

another good thing that has been happening is i have been working out! yay me! 
I didn’t know what changed me but yeah, after a gym session with my cousin, i started heading to the gym and training and i am doing cardio boxing tomorrow evening! Super excited! 

The thing is, i am not doing it to be skinny but instead to be fit and strong. I have never liked the stereotype of girls always being the damsel in distress. Yes, it is cute and all but guess i am just not that girl. I like a strong girl or women who can hold her ground but knows when to show her weakness but not make use of it. I really salute those women. 

FAVOURITE QUOTE AT WORK : god damn it. 

parting words, 

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For all those girls who wanna get their fitness back on or just to keep fit, 
Never lose hope! You beautiful girls can do it! 
The starting is always the hardest but trust me, if your doing it for the right reason and with the right way, 
You beautiful beings can achieve anything! 

So here i am rooting for all those beautiful babes who are trying to get your fit on! 
Lets do this together!

LET’S GO! HWAITING!