To a dear, SCP

SCP is the name i shall use to type this letter to my friend. 

Now she has a beautiful name, Shirley Cassandra. 

i honestly have never met anyone with such a unique name, it is might uncommon but her name is beautiful, just like the person. she has a kind heart and she is one of those people who you can easily talk too and just have a jolly good time with. 

but like everyone else, there are days where she has fallen and she feels alone even when she has people with her, she feels sad and feels like she is losing her friends and that can make anyone upset and i just want to say to her, 

you are just fine the way you are, there is nothing wrong with you and stop worrying about things. life is short and beautiful for us to worry about little stuff. 

“You never know what’s around the corner. It could be everything. Or it could be nothing. You keep putting one foot in front of the other, and then one day you look back and you’ve climbed a mountain.” 
― Tom Hiddleston

yes, shit happens, things messed up, relationship gets distant but keep moving on because you can, because you are able too, because you still have people who care about you and i am pretty sure they won’t stop caring. 

i know there are times where we don’t talk much and i can give you 101 excuses to why but it will never mean that i will stop caring about your well-being because you are an amazing person. 

 

you can do anything and this just doesn’t go out to her but to everyone who is having a rough time, we are all travellers in this life. Our journey are made from the decisions we make and by those choices we make, we meet people and we lose people along the way but fret not, every memory can be a lesson learnt or a beautiful past and we will never stop making wonderful memories. 

so chin up and smile, 

things are always going to bring you down but you just have to let go and tell yourself, 

“if i have done for best for them and that is good enough for me because i know i tried ” 

anyway,

love you guys!

xoxo 

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the saddest truth.

i have been single for god knows how long and i’m not exactly the type that will jump for someone, 

once i am unsure of my own feeling, i rather run then jump because to me there is no point jumping with the opposite / same gender to be in a hasty relationship because i was pressurized to be and  where I’ll be like 

if i want you, i want you but if i don’t then i don’t. 

That simple. 

well, usually things would be simple like this but once in a while, you find someone who you want , someone who makes you smile and makes you feel comfortable, someone who doesn’t rush you to be in a relationship or go out on a date with him or calls you mushy names,

someone who would take his own sweet time and having known a few guys who always pressurize you to be in a hasty relationship with them, you start find this side of him attractive. 

you end up waiting for his text but parts of you are telling that this is a bad idea and might not even be possible. 

And from then, your heart and your mind gets into a constant argument. 

” Don’t think about being with him, it’s impossible. He gives late reply, god knows which other lady he is with ” says the mind. 

“Do you feel those butterflies forming? anything is possible, give it a go, the game piece does not move if the board is not set ” says the heart. 

These kind of argument is tiring isn’t it? 

and these arguments can vastly change. How ? 

simple, i present you a picture of sawyer hartman ( Youtube star from America) 

Both mind and heart : Yep, His perfect. 

now come on, most of you might not agree but you know this part is true!

and so, me being a very straight forward person, i want to ask so many question because i want answer and mostly reassurance like You do want to talk to me, you do want to be my friend and you do want to date me but this is virtually impossible because like everyone else, 

I’m scared of the outcome. I am scared that this would be a one sided affair and what i say might ruin everything. it always feel like i am treading on thin line when i talk to him. 

the thinnest line of being straight forward and ruining everything or wait patiently and see how it plays out. 

and you know what is the best remedy, 

i am sure as hell getting a new book to read and to get everything off my head. 

and i am planning to get this book 

A breathtaking new urban fantasy trilogy from the critically acclaimed, award winning author of The Swan Kingdom and Shadows on the Moon.

When fifteen year old Mio Yamato furtively sneaks the katana – an ancestral Japanese sword – out of its hiding place in her parent’s attic to help liven up her Christmas party costume, she has no idea of the darkness she is about to unleash on modern day London, or the family secrets that she is going to uncover.

The paralysing paranoia that descends on her before she gets to her friend’s party is her first clue. The vivid and terrifying visions that nearly get her killed are a pretty good warning too.

The giant nine-tailed cat demon that comes after the sword and tries to rip her throat out? Overkill.

Seconds away from becoming kitty-food, Mio is saved by Shinobu, a mysterious warrior boy. But it’s already too late. Mio has ruptured the veil between the mortal realm and the Underworld, and now the gods and monsters of ancient Japan stalk the streets of London, searching for her and the sword. 

With the help of her best friend Jack, a fox spirit named Hikaru – and the devoted protection of the betwitchingly familiar Shinobu – Mio attempts to discover the true nature of the sword and its connection to the Yamato family. Because if she doesn’t learn how to control the katana’s incredible powers, she’s in danger of being overwhelmed by them. And if she can’t keep the sword safe from the terrible creatures who want it for their own, she’ll lose not only her own life… but the love of a lifetime.

 

http://www.goodreads.com/book/show/13031257-the-night-itself

 

Alright, this post is done lovelies and i am sorry this post has no direction in it but anyway

love you guys!

xoxo

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Change…It does a body, mind, and soul good.

something to ponder about

The Power of Paleo

Read this. 

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Now read it again. Read it yet again and understand that not only can your mind be stretched, but so can your body. We, as human beings, are creatures of habit. We get stuck in our daily routines. We even get stuck in our habits of what we like and don’t like. That is normal. Most of us think that if we didn’t like the taste, texture, or appearance of a food or drink at one time previously in our life, that that will always be the case. Not true. Our taste buds change as we grow. Not only do our taste buds change, but given the chance to adapt to new things, your body can learn to like things that at first bite, you may think it doesn’t. My fiance brought this up a few weeks ago as we first embarked on our gluten free/paleo journey…

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Being alone and enjoying it.

Hello guys!

i know i haven’t blogged in such a long time and i have something on my mind that i wish to share with you guys!

People when given a choice, they won’t want go shopping themselves, they won’t want to anywhere or do anything themselves because they can’t bring themselves to do it. They fear they would be deemed as lonely or friendless or something along the line. Most people i know actually fear doing things alone as they feel they don’t have a life and they hate it. 

well to me, being alone does not mean you do not have a life, it means you are not using that time for yourself properly. The misconception of having someone around you all the time is a bad one and it is a cycle that is hard to break from especially when you are used to having someone doing things with you. 

what if you don’t have anyone to do it with you, what do you do then? 

do you postpone your plans till someone eventually does it with you or you sum up all your courage and do things yourself?

i actually like being alone because i can do so much for me and myself like reading my books or comics, watching my drama and having me time, having a specific period of time where i can do things that i want, things that make me very happy like reading, playing games, finishing up my errands and just chilling like a cat. tucked in bed and feeling content with myself. 

i am not saying having friends with you all the time is a bad thing and being alone all the time is good as well. Everyone needs someone at some point of time and i won’t deny that but we need to strike a balance in between them as being with your friends, you can to spend time and know each other more but also being alone, you get to enjoy life’s little perks like making new friends or discovering how peaceful painting, reading or even an evening stroll is. 

Being around your friends is an important as having your own me time where you are free to do things you really enjoy or want to do. 

now if you are alone, close your eyes and relax. think about the autumn breeze and how beautiful the leaves have turned into. think about yourself sitting on a park bench or even at the beach or at the comfort of your own home watching the sunset. you are alone right now and i hope you can see how beautiful life can get when you have a me time

that is all for now my readers. 

xoxo, 

love you guys!

and here is some cute gif for you~