what life has become,

I have literally became a burrito of sadness, just bottling things up and smiling or acting like i don’t care.

I have having 2 months of school holiday and it is reaching it’s end and i have yet to get a job  that want me and living in Singapore, everything is literally very expensive and my parents often fought about money like every other parent but now, my mother has turned on me.

She has been bitching non stop how jobless i am, how a 22 year old is unable to contribute to the family income and make life easier for her.

And while saying this, she doesn’t think how i feel, do you think i don’t feel useless, of course i do! I feel bad enough that no one wants to hire me and by having you remind me what a useless 22 year old i am, i is honestly very tiring to me.

I get how stress she is working alongside my dad to make ends meet but i am trying to help, when i buy stuff i need, i don’t ask her for money, i save them on my own and when i buy groceries, i don’t even ask her to pay back and she does not see the little things i am doing to help like keeping the house clean while everyone is working, making sure there is cooked meals when they get back, doing chores and still, she calls me lazy,

It is frustrating to me and really makes me feel very useless at this point. I mean i am trying to run my own online business but economy is bad and you have tons of competitor and she ask why can’t i be a successful as my friends,

Well probably because i have no support and my mom does not seem to understand, i am a people person, as much as i hate them, i like talking and getting to know them, knowing their stories but my mom says all that is a waste of time and resource and it brings no income.

I hate how this world revolves around money that wanting to do what you like, you have to consider the amount of income you make. It saddening and i badly want to prove her wrong but how do i?

i am literally so tired of everything right now, i feel like i am fighting a losing battle to make my mom think better of me but all i am to her is a 22 year old burden who is unable to make her own income,

like today, she said my auntie is going to treat her dinner and told me to pay for my own,

i don’t mind staying home because i have already cooked chicken soup and will be fine with just that,

Alright, time to suck up everything and pretend that everything is just peachy.

FINALLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYY

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i have finally gotten control over my wordpress and my theme and background decided they liked each other and are going along very well!

Honestly an achievement unlock because i was already annoyed half way around the world and i honestly could not find the undo button which made matters worst but

its fine cause i got everything under control now.

Have a great week ahead you guys!

while i get to work on clearing my phone and updating my wordpress~

Much love,

xoxo

R.

 

OH

On a side note, i have finally linked my instagram and my twitter to my wordpress!

And be warn,

my instagram is filled with my faces while my twitter is filled with angsty tweet.

Follow at your own risk!

Changes

HI GUYS!

i apologies in advance for the number of theme changes as i got itchy hands and decided to change the original theme and has officially messed it all up.

Very sorry my bunnies and hopefully the noob me can figure something out because this has started to annoy me.

much love,

xoxo

R.

Some Terrible, Local News

My heart broke when i read this, how can people be so cruel to set fire to a dog’s home?!

City Jackdaw

Some terrible news here in Manchester tonight. It seems that Manchester Dog’s Home is on fire, and a youth has been arrested on suspicion of arson. There are reports of dogs yelping inside as the blaze takes hold.

Two men managed to climb a fence and kick a door in to gain access to part of the building, getting twenty dogs out and going back for more. The latest estimate is that over sixty dogs are dead with 150 rescued.
My Facebook newsfeed is full of people genuinely distressed, and also directing anger towards whoever is (allegedly) responsible.
But that is for later. Local residents are mobilising to provide blankets, food etc, and police say they have been inundated with offers to house surviving dogs. Local supermarkets are already arranging collection points for donations of money and food, with online facilities being set up too.

It is heartening to see…

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