Short rants : Trust me, if i could hit you, i would



but that also mean i have to go back to work which is a bummer but it’s fine.

Today short rant would be,

How i wish i could hit people who always try to change my plan!

Let’s get it straight here, i am a very particular person even if i don’t show it. I cannot stand people who keeps trying to change my plan especially when i have set it like a few days ago ( which normally is about a day or two beforehand) and when you tell me to change my plan last minute, you are just asking to be hit


Like the other day,

i was actually on the way back home and i had already set what time i needed to clear my school work including my project and the next day’s class work but my clever annoying irritating friend decided she urgently needed something from me and kept saying she needed to get it from me and i knew if i were to get down on the bus, i was going to get home late and delay everything but because she was a friend, i gave her a chance or as we Singaporean say, i gave her face and got down and waited for her and guess what, she called and said she didn’t need it anymore and hanged up. NOT EVEN A WORD OF SORRY WAS SPOKEN,

And the other day,

i was rushing home because i was tired and i honestly just wanted to rest and do my Final year project when my mom called and said she needed me to see my auntie and i told her nicely that i had a lot of things to catch up on and i’ll see her tomorrow but she insisted that i see her today and dragged me to my uncle’s place and i ended up not doing anything productive because well, how could i and i don’t normally get annoyed with this because family is family but there would always be a reason why i would suggest an alternative and it is probably because i had shit to do.

The thing is,

And this is really true because some people, not saying everyone expects you to drop the whole world for them while they are not willing to do the same and will end up playing this blaming game with a hint of emotional blackmail. Lets be honest here, everyone has their own things/ shit to do and as much as we want to help you, we have got to help ourselves first and if we don’t, we are the ones suffering, not you sweetie.

so to everyone out there,

unless it is a dire emergency, please please do not alter or try to change someone’s plan last minute because you end up screwing them over and if you really really need to see them or talk to be, ask first and if they really cannot, offer alternative.

We really do appreciate people who are able to do that and of course we will move our things around accordingly.

We are human and we have got to be considerate to one another because if we don’t, we cannot expect people to do the same for us.


toodle dee you guys!




Short rants : And then i glared at it, feeling pretty annoyed

I honestly am pretty annoyed at my own word press because most of the post i am trying to queue has got cut half way or is missing and me is not happy.

anyone else having this problem or is it just me?

RANTS : that one friend

Let’s get straight to the point, we all have that one friend who always MIA or disappear when we need them and apparently i have one of them in my clique as well. 

I know it is unavoidable but honestly,can i just burn her to the bits and pieces? cause honestly i am done! I am so tired of all this shit. 

It goes like this, i have this friend who we are going to call N. She has a tendency to disappear during the holidays and basically me and my girls really give up on trying to ask her out on our outings because she won’t reply your sms or basically she isn’t there and i was totally fine with it until a week or two before break. we both decided to join judo together and when it came to the holiday and training was going on as usual, i thought she was going to come because god damn it, there was training! 

But apparently the girl is so busy that she has no time to come and it sucks because i am the one who always have to spam her phone reminding her, trying to call her to find out is she coming or not and i find myself annoying but here is the thing, 

judo camp is 3 days away and this girl is no where to be found! I kept trying to call her to find out if she was coming to training today because she said she WILL TRY TO MAKE IT TO FRIDAY’S TRAINING but when i tried calling her, THIS BITCH IS NO WHERE TO BE FOUND! NO SMS, CAN’T EVEN GET THROUGH HER PHONE AND SHE IS PISSING ME OFF! 


like i am so done with this! if you didn’t want to go holiday training or camp, just say and i will leave you alone! i feel like i am wasting my breathe and my sms and internet connection and my calling time trying to get through to someone who probably died in a hole and no one could find her body or her handphone. 

yes that is how pissed i am! i tried to be understanding but don’t keep me hoping only to find out you are missing and making me feeling very angry because an angry me is never good like today i am THIS CLOSE TO TEXTING YOU SOME REALLY MEAN STUFF AND TRUST ME, WHEN I SAID IT IS MEAN, IT’S VERY MEAN. 


or another option could be killing you in your sleep because one way or another, i am still murdering you for all the dashed hopes, no replies and useless phone calls. 

sorry for the outburst ma readers, 

some people can really get on your nerve faster than the rest and the worst part, they are in your clique. 

anyway much love, 



I don’t normally question myself or think otherwise of my gender or sexuality. 

I love myself the way i am and love others the same no matter what their sexuality is but right now, i can’t help but think i should have been born as a guy.

Its so tiring to hear everyone say ” Are you sure you’re a girl? ” or “You are weird for liking such stuff “

so why do people pass such judgement? 

Simply because i like horror, Gore,  anime and their cosplay events,  war and action genre and i love games but I’m not an avid gamer though. Partly because i suck at it and i tend to get so easily distracted that i end up losing and letting out a string of curses.

And every time i ask someone to the movies with me be it my girls or my friends and i ask if they want to watch a horror movie or an action movie, 

their reaction


and i’m like 


but no, it doesn’t stop here! 

Then they start making comments and telling me how weird i am and all and making all sorts of assumption and passing comments. 


to be honest,

I don’t find what i like odd at all. I mean everyone has a different personality and are bound to like different stuff. I basically can watch anything but zombie cause i think they are really that freaky but hey, i don’t complain when you guys wanna watch a chick flick or some romantic sob comedy. I’ll go with it because i am giving it a chance so why can’t you do the same and stop with all the passing comment. If you don’t want too, just say its not your cup of tea and we are good!

i won’t force you to watch it with me. 

like how i won’t force you to melt at the sight of Bruno Mars being all so yummy!



initially i wasn’t planning to blog till i got my travel post done but bruno mars is wayyy more important and beside i had to get it off my chest. 


much love,